Well, “it” happened.
I am not sure how I should feel, or how I will feel when all the emotional consequences catch up with me. What I do feel is grounded, real and vital again. I also feel more creative and motivated.
Sex is great! I’m slightly shocked at how basic my needs sometimes are and at how transformative a great night of passion can be. (I was very tempted to phrase that in a much more basic way!) But at the same time I am also comforted by that thought. Sometimes understanding yourself can be painful; realizing how basic your needs are, can be uncomfortable. But right now I am just determined that I will never go so long without sex again.
Andy, I wish we could live together. I wish the passions we need could be mixed with the feelings we share… But until and unless that happens, no guilt on either side. We both need a full life.